Lately in my work as a spiritual medium and healer I have seen more and more clients, friends and even my beautiful husband, finally walk away from jobs and lifestyles that have been making them sick for a long time. It is as though we, as a community, are making a shift from living in our heads, bullied by fear of dire consequences for not maintaining the satis-quo, to choosing to live from the heart.
Making the choice to listen to our heart creates a space for us that is free from the tyranny of logic, ‘risk management’ and fear. Within this space we are really able to consider our needs as spiritual beings and journeyers and to reassess our priorities. Earning large amounts of money and being able to maintain a particular social image begins to feel very unsatisfying if that also means compromising significant relationships and our own health and growth.
Choosing to create a life that is simpler and has space for meaningful connections with ourselves, others and our Earth is empowering and enriching. For my own personal journey, listening to my heart and choosing to stand in my Truth and engage in work that feeds my Soul has been a wonderful experience. An experience that has shown me inner-strength I had not recognised and created sustained bliss such I have not felt before.
Image: Symphony of Love
Throughout my adolescence my mother’s life was punctuated by visits to specialists and trials of alternative therapies to help manage the pain and debilitating effects of the arthritis that existed in every joint of her body. She also continued to do battle with depression and was hospitalised several times following suicide attempts. I became accustomed to waking in the middle of the night to the lights of an ambulance in the backyard coming to take my mother away once again. By this time my sister Heather and I were old enough to stay home and care for our little sister so we no longer had to endure long periods of exile at relatives’ homes.
My father worked doggedly and quietly at his rehabilitation. He taught himself to write with his left hand as the right side of his body had been compromised in a way similar to that of a stroke victim. His ability to return to work part-time as an external marker is testament to his strength and determination as well as the high esteem accorded to him by his colleagues. He eventually returned to the classroom teaching one entry-level subject. By this time he had also spent many hours teaching himself to write left-handed on a chalkboard.
When I was seventeen years old my mother was diagnosed with secondary amaloidosis, a complication of the osteo and rheumatoid arthritis. The amaloidosis affected the functioning of her kidneys and at the time of the diagnosis she was told that she had five years left to live. I remember the day she told me. It was in the afternoon after I had come home from school and as usual she was in bed. Looking back I know my reaction was inappropriate and must have hurt my mother deeply. At the time though I felt so relieved and happy that she had a whole five years left to live! I thought it was wonderful because I had spent a large part of my childhood dreading coming home from school because I expected to find her dead from one of the many ailments that plagued her. This diagnosis meant that I didn’t have to worry for another five years, what a blessing.
The next three years passed with no major events. At the age of twenty I married my husband, and we have now been married for thirty-three years and have three amazing children. However at thirty-three years of age I experienced my first episode of major clinical depression. My journey with depression and anxiety had begun and it is only now, twenty years later, that I fully understand its purpose and lessons.
It is important to understand that your Inner-Child is not wounded by the events and experiences of your childhood. When you enter each life you are very closely connected and aligned with your Inner-Child. This is where your sense of wonder, adventure, fearless inspiration and great capacity for love is held safe. Always you have your Inner-Child waiting patiently for your return.
The life-events of your childhood are so important and sacred because they provide the basis for the key learning that you have chosen to experience in this life. It is because they are so important that they must occur when you are at your most vulnerable so they can resonate long enough for you come back to them as adults and clearly see the purpose and the learning held within these experiences. Your Inner-Child can bring great love, energy and creativity to this learning.
In an earlier post I write about the strong connection and close association between the Inner-Child and the Higher Self. I want to expand on this point. The Inner-Child is completely and fearlessly open to Spirit. When we enter each life we too are open to Spirit and able to perceive and interact effortlessly with this realm. For most of us this open connection fades as we get down to the business of experiencing our learning in each life. The Inner-child though continues to be blissfully and innocently embraced by those in spirit, allowing the channel between the Inner-Child and the Higher-Self to remain open. Understanding our Inner-Child and reconnecting with him/her, then, is a powerful portal to our Higher-self.
The Higher-Self is an aspect of the Self that remains aware of our entire journey, across all lives, to full development as an enlightened Being. Establishing a conscious link to the Higher-Self supports us in being able to become our own observer, helping us to lift our heads above the drama of life to catch a glimpse of the ‘big picture’ in terms of our current life. These moments of clarity allow us to understand why we are engaged in the challenges that we are and to more readily access the learning that we want to achieve. This understanding enables us to move more quickly through these learning experiences and so clear the way for more growth.